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[Jan. 28th, 2007|03:32 pm] |
what i read somewhere...
"All I want to know is if health care is a right, why isn't dental care a right too. Cause those dentist dudes get paid in cash, don't take sh*t from anyone, and no one seems to mind."
true that yo. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2007|07:35 pm] |
Your results:
You are Venom
| Venom |
| 54% |
| Two-Face |
| 51% |
| The Joker |
| 51% |
| Dr. Doom |
| 50% |
| Mr. Freeze |
| 48% |
| Dark Phoenix |
| 47% |
| Riddler |
| 44% |
| Magneto |
| 42% |
| Catwoman |
| 42% |
| Apocalypse |
| 41% |
| Poison Ivy |
| 41% |
| Lex Luthor |
| 40% |
| Green Goblin |
| 35% |
| Mystique |
| 35% |
| Juggernaut |
| 31% |
| Kingpin |
| 20% |
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Strength, disguise and adrenaline are your greatest weapons.
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Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test
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[Jan. 24th, 2007|07:30 pm] |
For the past two Sunday nights, I've been going with a friend to a Basics to Christianity meeting.. partly out of guilt for saying yes and I'll think about it and not thinking about it and then knowing I'd waste my time otherwise anyways and partly because I thought maybe a little bit of it might help me.
Anyways, I still think I should find a Zen or Tao fellowship and meet with them next! But what I think I love most out of Christianity are their contemporary Christian songs. They're so easily accessible with just a guitar and tons of people who sound wonderful when they're singing it. And everything seems so peaceful and happy, and like Southpark says, you can take any I love you Baby song and erase Baby and put in Jesus and then you can make a smash hit.
But anyways, now not only do I wish I could sing to show off in karaoke, but then with mad guitar and vocal skills, I'd have accomplished something major to put on my 'to do' list and then check it off. |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2007|01:47 pm] |
b/c i wanted to see what i had in my itunes since my ipod broke....
Opening Credits: expo '86 death cab for cutie
so this is when i started believing in astrology... because how did itunes know i was born then?!!!
Falling in Love: i will follow you into the dark - death cab for cutie.
=( sadly i do always feel like that when i'm infatuated
Breaking Up: the middle - jimmy eat world.
ohmygosh, not only is it a breakup song, it's my life song... wish i had this for later too.
Prom: sweet home alabama - lynyrd skynyrd
because itunes wants to remind me that i'm from texas?
Life's OK: the angel of music - phantom of the opera
i don't like this one. my life's okay because i have a psycho tutor? egh.
Mental Breakdown: 1812 overture - tchaikovsky
YES can you just see it? filming this panning shot of a totally white corridorish room and the only dark spot is me sitting there with my mental rock-breakdown to THIS. all the psychos breakdown to classical music!
Driving: tangled - maroon 5
so breakupsong.. b/c i do happen to like listening to them while i drive.. will i get tangled on a tree. eek!
Getting Back Together: try again - aaliyah
i love aaliyah and i heart this song because there's asian famosity. and it's great r&b
Birth of Child: playground love - air
yay! it deals with childhood... boo it's on virgin suicides i don't want a suicidal family
Wedding Scene: goodbye love - rent
eek...
but it's okay, because this where they have to come together for angel's death.
Final Battle: i just died in your arms tonight - journey
hmm.. my final battle is romantic?
Death Scene: do you only wanna dance ... musical instruments version only.
okay, okay final battle and death scene all girly, i get it, i need to change some genres now.
Funeral Scene: 100 years - five for fighting
wooo!!! hopefully this means i'll live that long because i'm not too fond of premature deaths.
End Credits: bend and break - keane
"i'll meet you on the other side" --- i would love to go out like this. |
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[Jan. 19th, 2007|08:35 pm] |
i am so scared of diabetes 2 because i think something's wrong with my eyes because my head hurts and everything is getting fuzzy sometimes and diabetic retinopathy (going blind as a bat) is really common!!! eeek.
also i think i'm so tired all the time because i'm not getting enough folate.
so i'm almost turning into a health freak.
seriously guys, eat lots of leafy greens and citrus fruits because it'll combat a lot of bad things in your body. but don't forget to eat your meat and dairy. but vegetables and fruits will save your life!!!!!! |
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[Jan. 19th, 2007|03:12 pm] |
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So the Chinese had worked out a test missile that obliterated a satellite now, which the US had already the technology to do in 1985 and now the US is mad because it's a hostile move. I never understand when someone already has the power to develop something horrendous tell others that they can't do the same thing. Like I'd understand if the US couldn't do this, because they would be at a disadvantage. But when I've made a gun to shoot at you and I tell you not to make a gun to defend yourself, you'd be pretty stupid if you listened to me. Am I missing something here? |
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[Jan. 15th, 2007|03:24 pm] |
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so I don't think I can be an ob/gyn. I think vaginas are gross, I think old boobs that fall and flap around like earflaps on aviator caps are disgusting. I know I have/will have those attributes but I can't see them over and over again on other people. Maybe I'm androgynous, but I think all those gigantic labia flaps look like tissue overgrowth of cancer and I think I just can't stand the sight of all these skin folds. Yuckity Yuck. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2006|08:50 am] |
I feel like I'm in hell. You know, that hell where that guy is surrounded ankle deep in water except he's really thirsty because everytime he bends down to scoop some water to quench his thirst, the water recedes and he can never get it? I'm surrounded by tons and tons and tons of doctors and doctors to be. And I have this silly stupid cold that I want fixed, PRONTO. I mean, come on, I even know it's yellow sputum!!! Why can't some doctor come and do some voodoo and kill all the germies all of a sudden!!!! =(
I've NEVER BEEN SICK TWICE IN ONE SEMESTER. i am extremely pissed off that my good-luck is receding as much as *ahem's* hairline. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2006|07:20 pm] |
If a terroristic attack was launched in Philadelphia, and believe me there ARE people out there who want to bomb the Liberty Bell, Ed Jasper and his bowl haircut may save the day. Okay, so perhaps his bowl haircut may have nothing to do with this wonderful man and his enlightening terrorist attack lessons, but it's just not everyday one sees a bowl haircut on someone who didn't just step off the fishing boat from China. However, Ed Jasper is responsible for simulating blowing up a bus with plastic heads and feet stuck in it. Today was the annual Philadelphia drill to see if the city can respond well to a terrorist attack. And I got to play my first part as an extra! 700 students and others not so important got painted to look like people who got hurt in the bomb, got cyanide poisoning, got a heart attack, or .. if your painter (EMT or paramedic student) did a bad job, you got to look like someone who decided to use their mother's lipstick and smeared it all over Swe..her face. (I kid, you always look gorgeous). AND there were quite a lot of knocked up boys and even a pop-out eye! Besides the cool looking special effects, in which my ghastly 'shrapnelled' arm looked quite real, I also learned that if there was a bombing and nerve agent release... I would have died for the poor response of the fire/police dept and paramedics. BUT if I was one of the lucky ones to arrive to the hospital, I would get some nice treatment and have wheelchair races! Other than that kiddos, I've survived yet ANOTHER day without resorting to drug injection and am quite proud of it. :)
good night and good loving. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2006|06:42 pm] |
I was reading an article about how defense attorneys for the prisoners at Guantanamo are trying to still get their cases reviewed and tried because the ridiculous law that was just passed does not cover cases that are already on-going because we aren't at war. I think I'm in love with these attorneys for their humanism and just pray that they don't go into psychological despair over this (in my mind) david and goliath struggle. I just think it's really scary, to be forgotten. What if you were taken prisoner into Guantanamo and nobody told your family where you were. They would, of course, have a panic attack hopefully for at least a couple of years. But really, what's the difference between you being taken a secret prisoner and getting lost on an island, like in that Tom Hanks's movie, Castaway. The Helen Hunt character eventually moved on, and I think, for the family's sanity, so will they. And they'll just pray that you're in a better place, but the truth of the reality is that you're not. And for them to move on, they're no longer going to be pressuring anybody to try to find you nor do they know enough to try to help you get you out of that hellhole. So then you're hanging on this false dream that someone will always be there for you, always care about you and you will be able to finally be free. When in reality, the only one fighting for your rights is your lawyer, against a law already stamped and passed that basically denies your rights. Slim Chance. It has the same scariness of the beginnings of Alzheimer's disease that we were talking about a week ago, the cognizance of deterioration but not being able to do anything about it. It's horrible in Alzheimer's that you knew what it was like to be 'normal', and now you know you will never be able to be like that. The anxiety and frustration at least for yourself will end when you can't remember enough to be frustrated. But in Guantanamo, you knew what it was like to live in society that went halfway by the rules, but now you're severely tortured and you have no voice to say anything about it, because to the rest of the world, you don't exist.
And it gets me when I'm a retard for not helping them because maybe I should be active about something like this. I mean, there is some health related tone that doctors should be actively concerned for these people, right? |
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[Oct. 15th, 2006|01:26 pm] |
i know this has happened a while ago because i remember reading colin powell's message to mccain and then how the senate security/war or something committee was against it, but somehow the democrats were duped into passing it (because according to salon.com, the democrats are too weak because they worry too much about platform instead of their ideals. in this case, they play the defensive because if they didn't pass this, the republicans can have a field day with saying how they're not good with american security, but if they played the offence and stuck by their ideals.. perhaps other people's freedoms wouldn't be lost. but they didn't act in hopes of winning more seats.. and if it's still to be weak-willed then all is lost)
it sucks that in my community, it didn't even make ANY splash. true, i didn't talk about it with anyone, but nobody talked about it with me either..
are we too engrossed in the thenar muscles of the hand to see that there's bigger issues at hand?.. ohmygod what a bad pun.. i didn't intend it
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ucru/20061011/cm_ucru/americasnuremberglaws;_ylt=AsQiPKw0osuHa8vS5or41uz9wxIF;_ylu=X3oDMTA0cDJlYmhvBHNlYwM-
it talks about how the weimar republic didn't turn into the third reich in a day. it's an analogy of hitler's regime (the examples been overdone i know, but i like this article) to the america we come to live with today. and it stinks that we've actually approved a law that gives the right to torture. so we're the german citizens who sat by and tried to do something but all we ended up doing was make an angry face while we let our leader strip away rights that should transcend politics.
"It doesn't matter how much food aid we ship to the victims of the next global natural disaster, or how diplomatic our next president is, or whether we come to regret what we have done in the name of law and order. Our laws permit kidnapping, torture and murder. Our laws deny access to the courts. The United States has ceded the moral high ground to its enemies. We are done. " |
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[Sep. 29th, 2006|02:56 pm] |
I think it's amazing how unbelievably emotional and rash and retarded I can be sometimes. Sometimes, I feel like the reason I cry in front of people is because I want to look good, and not like the cold insensitive being I can be. Yesterday, I got teary in front of this family physician who does a great deal of community service work when I was lamenting on how medical school pushes students too hard to succeed academically that they really don't try to instill this sense of community well-being into us. And then today, while I was standing in line waiting to waste some money at the post office, there was this poor guy who seemed to have whatever Sean Penn had in I am Sam (which in itself was a tearjerker), but he just seemed like a real nice guy with some problem, since he couldn't figure out where the next open station was, and then when he did get there, he started talking really loudly and in that odd manner that Sean-man presented so well in that movie. And I just thought it was really sad if I worked as a psychiatrist in a ward for mental patients... not that he is or that guy is or ... (i'm trying to be p.c.). I just thought that I'm not strong enough to shoulder any more burden of the world. I'm such a loser, I don't think I'm set for some aspects of medicine.
And to bring that up, we have this *Ridiculous* ceremony called the white coat ceremony where you don your white coat as the first step into med school. It's stupid because we have lectures on how society shouldn't have this myth about how people in a white coat can cure everything, and here we are, using the white coat as a special symbol of entering the medical profession. And supposedly the research said that everytime med school students used the word white coat at Jefferson, it was also closely associated with the words trust, prestige, responsibility, burden. So we don't want people to think so highly of us because they sue our pants off when we fail, but we should still revere this white coat white saint white god kind of feeling? Med school is so bullshitty sometimes. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2006|01:03 pm] |
| Your Inner European is French! | 
Smart and sophisticated.
You have the best of everything - at least, *you* think so. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2006|01:01 pm] |
| You May Be a Bit Schizotypal... | 
A bit odd and socially isolated.
You couldn't care less of what others think.
And some of your beliefs are a little weird.
Like that time you thought you were Jesus. |
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[Sep. 26th, 2006|11:53 pm] |
Oh my goodness. It's only the first tuesday after my third test and already I feel like Marge Simpson in the episode where her hair started falling out in gigantic clumps because of the stress of the Simpson household. Except subsitute household for med school and hair falling out in clumps for gigantic pimples of DOOM. And I guess substitute Marge for me, and there you have it. I'm so glad I'm 20 right now. If I was an older medical school student, I probably would have had five heart attacks by now. Man, I need to take some relaxation classes. That, or drugs, because this way of living is going to kill me so much earlier than I had planned.
Second of all, thanks to Kelly and Liz and everyone else superbly nice who tried to calm me down. And thanks for the letter Kelly! w00T! I got MAIL. that always makes my day, to check a mailbox and actually get something useful.
So besides the fact that once again, we're in a subject where I can't see heads or tails, or for this matter, I can't find any of the names of all the bones and holes in the skull, I'm inundated with stress with work and with a disgustingly messy room that I want to clean but everytime I'm home, all I want to do is sleep. MMMM.... so comfy.
What makes me happy...
sleeping eating dreaming
DAYS of not studying
the sun
exploring.
ohmygod i'm too stressed out to function. and i really don't need to be THAT stressed. i'm going to unwind the only way i know how. eating some chocolate and going to bed. peace. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2006|11:51 pm] |
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Sometimes I get so overwhelmed in med school. Actually scratch that... I'm most probably overwhelmed at any time in med school. During the week of studying, I feel like I can't do anything else, or else I'll start feeling even more inundated about all the other books and chapters I haven't read yet. And it's slightly daunting to read about residency life, where most of the times you feel like you don't know anything that's going on (now that I'm in med school, if I'm ever admitted into the hospital, I will be kicking and screaming for an Actual doctor and not one of these interns, I'm sad to say since I'll be one, but it's one of those, wow, now that you know how inexperienced these people are, there's no reason why I want them to come near me.) And I can't even do whole day studying. What will I do with 30 hour oncalls? I'm not even through my first year of med school, to say the least the first block, and the pressure is just too intense for me. Well, not too intense since I'm still going through with this, but I feel like the stress level is high, the idea that I can play god and save a life or accidentally kill one (and then get sued for this life and well into my next). It's like you never really think about all of this until you're in the system. And once you get in, you've made too much of a downpayment (and I'm a shmuck who has nowhere in mind to go) for me to get out. Sometimes when I think of the future, I stress even about that. And I want to go into Emergency Medicine. I think I just want to die early. And who has time to enjoy the breeze or look at the clouds and find what they look like if you put on your hippie glasses. It's been a wonderful weekend and I think I've gone through quite a couple of miniature panic attacks. I don't believe people underlined in red and highlighted and pointed at the unending amount of STRESS a medical education and job will be in the future. yeesh. |
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[Sep. 16th, 2006|09:31 pm] |
So hello there kids...
It is the week of my third test and I have already started freaking out beforehand. But that's only because I've joined too many clubs and am now too scared of failing (as in not getting a stupendously high grade) because of other obligations. But that's not what I need right now.
Right now, I need some help. I feel like puking because all I've been doing today is (wasting time), Studying, and gorging myself after I went shopping for food. I've eaten (since lunch) a taro cakey bread, the pork hot dog with bunnish thing, wonton soup, some pork fried rice, some pork lo mein, a pluot, and now while I was eating this delicious peach, I have a sudden urge to puke. :(
I've never had a sudden urge to puke from food. aghh.
Med school is SO stressful, it's making my system work against meeeeeeeee.
sorry, I needed to whine, now back to studying I guess.
awe;auehg;ahdgashdfasd
fasdfjhaskjdf
asdkfhasdf
killme.
asdfads;gouhasdifh asd
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[Sep. 1st, 2006|06:16 pm] |
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for those of you who like to use the phrase "getting raped by a test", you won't metaphorically feel how BAD it is until you go into a stupid practical and you look at a stupid piece of who knows what nerve, fiber, vein, artery and not even knowing where in the body it's going to. UGH i'm so mad at myself because i feel like there were a couple of questions where i thought too much into it and changed it. i hate it when that happens. whatever time for a break. yummy. |
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